I was doing wayy good then mom noticed.
She literally ran out to my car in the poring rain to yell at me about eating! wtf? I was down to 119.6 & on my way to 118, but I messed up. Her watchful eye drove me crazy! Ended up binging that night. 3 days later & I'm at 122.olbs. Bloated, acid reflux, all the shitty things that come with sudden food in an empty body.
Tomorrow I'm flying off to my bros wedding
Plan; only eat when mom is watching, exercise daily at hotel gym, zero binges or desserts! I'll allow myself 4 small bites of wedding cake, but thats all. I'll keep the drinks to a min, no mixed drinks (full of sugar&cals!)
I want to be thin! My friend is going into treatment july 2-august 3rd. She's at the point where she could die, so I'm glad she's going. however, extremely jealous of her skinny boney arms! :-( 105 is a very good weight for me, that's my goal! By August 25 when I visit friends back home.
~C~
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