anxiety, jobs, and ex

CW:125.0
STGW: 119
LTGW: 108

Watching "Dead Like Me" it's a comedy that cheers me up! She reminds me of a mix of me and my friend Kali. The character, George(she's a girl), makes realistic observations that the majority of ppl would find rude, but I think they're hilarious!!

My dad and I went to the bakery for breakfast. I stuffed myself with an apple fritter, went home, purged, then back to sleep. When I woke up, I had this urrgency to apply for jobs!! I took a Klonipin/Clonzipam to ward off a panic attack, and started applying!

I have a job at a retail store, but it's short-term. Of course they don't know that....I'll work, be happy or prettend to be happy, smile, but most of all; use it to loose all this fat!
While I was married, i turned to food to avoid my husband. A year ago, when we got engaged, I was 110. Obviously my marriage was a disaster....every time I eat and I'm not hungry, I blame him. I know it was always my choice but it was easier to eat than talk to an abusive husband.
I need to go

intake: 920
burned: 200